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| 02:50pm 09/08/2005 |
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mood:  bitchy
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okay so....i just dont understand this friendship bit...i mean it does mean...FRIEND right? yes well...it seems that all of my "friends" dont know what friendship IS...they think that its just...whenever i come in handy THEN they can be my friends..but other than that..hell no one needs to call me...no one should talk to me....etc etc...yes i am VERY bitter about this because my so called "best friend" seems to not know what friendship IS..seems to not tell me anything....not call me...not talk to me unless i call her...doesnt inform me of what shes doing..doesnt inform me of where shes going...does not ask me to come out with her....and she lies to my face...oh joyeux...i love friends like that....this is why i have decided to just NOT bother...like...if all these "friends" of mine are doing it to me..and i have to hound them about coming out...then i think ill just rather go out with people who actually do like having me as a friend...and people who dont take friendship for granted..and THEN when all my so called "friends" of the moment come running or crawling back to me because their friends have done the exact same things to them as they did to me...then i can easily tell them to fuck off...and stop being so fucking dam rediculous...why the hell should i take them back if they have been a bitch to me 2ce already? i mean....once i would be like yeah sorry man...but 2ce! and both times knowing EXACTLY what they did wrong...like who's to say its not going to happen again? so therefore....im just not going to bother anyone...not call anyone...etc etc...and then wait...to see how many actual friends i have..becuase these friends should be emailing me...or calling me right?....well lets see....day 2 and :O nobody has emailed me...called me...talked to me on the internet...hmm...this whole friendship bit is overrated and fucking queer....the only person i can actually count on right now is benton and HES in missisagua....THANK GOD im going up there this weekend...otherwise i think i would have to KILL somebody
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| what a pity that the phantom cant be here... |
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| 02:32pm 03/08/2005 |
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mood:  blah
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MASQUERADE!.....oh joy! at elyse's roight neeyow.....uh huh...
we just finished watatchin the phantom of the opera (by the way the actor who plays him is Tres tres hottnosity) silly little christine tho...she could have saved herself so many times....so many obvious blunders that she cant deal with....what a queer child....and stupid....especially because whats his name...Raoul....or however you spell....falls in love with her within like...3 seconds...how very trivial...what a dissapointment....okay enough of this fantastic movie....whats new with me? absolutly nothing...much....lol....k well im bored now and dont feel like filling this in with anything so...tata =) |
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| thats it giraffe, get all the marmalade... |
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| 11:22pm 29/07/2005 |
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mood: annoyed
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....ahoy matey's....
oo eeff......cousin is over now (yay) this week has been rediculous....mostly...my life...because according to many of my "friends" i get myself into too many problems, and i make too many mistakes...and if i listened to them then i would have an altogether better life...but hey...live and learn....not that im angry about all my mistakes or anything...not that i dont regret them...just....it sucks...ass....i want my hair purple...as soon as this wedding is over i am going intense with the hair dye...maybe ill do it bright orange....nawwwwww just purple...(sa-weet deal)....ARG freaking weddings....should just be...over...forever...or i should..yes that would solve weddings AND my mistakes and my problem with friends...oh joy....suicide ( a better way)...im almost positive thats a song...k im gonna go and paint my toenails now for the wedding....ATTAZ
...and i have a fucking bug bite on my ass...wont that be dandy at the wedding tommorow? scratchin my ass infront of all these people i dont know? oh joy....*note the enthusiasm* |
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| ...give me a reason to end this discussion |
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| 02:09pm 19/07/2005 |
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mood: aggravated
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Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
->Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition.
To fold and divide.
->Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
->I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!
->I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
->Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard)
To fall and divide (it's not so hard)
So let's not get carried (away with everything)
Away with the process (from here to in-between)
of elimination (the long goodbye)
I don't want to waste your time.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
(Alright)
Tell me that you're alright,
(Hi, everything's great)
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hi, everything's great)
Everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)
...too busy avoiding life at the moment, leave a message i may get back to you... |
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| *giggles* |
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| 02:34pm 13/07/2005 |
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mood: cranky
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oh my....at elyse's right now...TRES hungry...unfortunatly there is only healthy food...seriously...WHEN do i ever eat anything not considered junk? only like...once a year... IF your lucky....annnnnnnnnnnnyways...i leave for camping tomorow...wont be back untill sometime next weekers...dont remember the day...too lazy...must eat...cant make sentences....cant type...ugh./.....brain...misfunctioning...WTF i just wrpote misfuctioning...in meant....MALfunctions....dammit...i dont know...shut it ashley....bye
I LOVE RACHAEL - from ashley =]
jfilugdahui
ashley.....i dont think im cranky...BUT WHATEVER ARG....damit...dammit....dammit..... |
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| oh man |
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| 08:21pm 01/06/2005 |
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OKAY...so it has been like frickin TRES long since i last typed in this...how awkward...well not quite awkward as...strange. annnnyyyywho...i never actually thought i'd be using this again but then suprise suprise (!) mel has a livejournal and like me...has no life (jokes mel jokes lol) annnnywho...so whats new with me? hm not a whole lot...well actually there is..but thats all personal and im sure that if i put most of it on here people would be like...WTF RACHAEL!!!! and go intensely crazy...so ive decided not to write it...and also..to leave because im bored with writing now..lmao so yes..i shall TRY my BEST to keep this posted (for you mel...consider yourself lucky lol) and also....ermm yeah...BYEZ!
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| i hate mondays |
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| 12:27pm 24/01/2005 |
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mood:  I HATE MONDAYS!
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wow me and melissa are dorks, we wrote that it was an onoponopeia or whatevers but it actually was an oxymoron...which makes more sense now thta i think of it...annnyways so today i had a nervous breakdown in class and i would like to just fall asleep into a deep death right now...er so today first period we got out gym cpts back, then second i had a math cpt, and third i had a biology unit test, and then fourth i had a hinduism unit test, in which i think i died in all of them and by fourth period i was walking around my classroom so fast that people started trying to cut me off because i was like going hysterical with how much i hate today....yep i hate mondays...er mom is on le phone with work and i dont think i am supposed to be on right now but meh...im gonna go and watch the matrix and calm myself down with the hotness of keanu reeves...the good news is that in all my classes we are done learning
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| 07:19pm 22/01/2005 |
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mood:  devious...heh heh
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wow boring title, its the sims i just looked down and saw it so i wrote it...heh...anywho so melissa is over right now. {btw... currently single heh heh... any takers? let me know!!!} k that was defintaly her becuz first of all i defintaly would not like to hear about how many people think shes hot and then have them just be like...oh yeah you?well...no thats okay...annnyways nothing has really been happening in the past few weeks but ill fill in the spaces in a min. okay so...lets see er...i went snowboarding...with sum people...lol..er nothing has been happening i have a boring life! cept this guy..who melissa wants me to get together with...is a prat...and a wally...dam guys that go to my school if only...im gonna stop myself right there. so me and melissa are going to semi on the 24th...thaaaaats going to be fun lol cept i do get to buy a brand spanking new vintage dress aha like the onomonopeia...actualy i cant spell and i dont even know if thats what its called...i think i slept through that lesson...and hey it was super comfy in that class being that their was couchs...and lovely things...k im super bored and melissa is bugging me becuase no one reads this anyways...lol bye
PS: WE GOT OUR MBR TICKETS WOOTOLA! {MELISSA SAYS>>>HOO-RAY!} woopwoop |
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| long time no write |
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| 01:28pm 31/12/2004 |
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alright...so to fill you in for the past two weeks here i go:
i didnt really do anything...i went snowboarding and met 2 guys...go random and funness...and they are nice...lol umm...christmas was good...got a mp3 player and tons of money, er...then i went snowboarding and met other people..but they were no fun...and today is new years eve and krista is supposed to come over...and then tomorow i think im going snowboarding...woot...alright well i was goign to make this realyl long but im too bored and getting distracted by sarah playing fable...which i hate but its entertaining to see her try |
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| 05:07pm 16/12/2004 |
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i am so bo-red today, well right now. so today was erm...quite interesting...i finished disecting my pig today icky, but quite interesting. my partener was er...helpful? lol anyways...im in such a random mood, lately ive been extremly happy, but today im just really depressed and i dont know why mhmm so yes not gonna waste everyone's time here im just gonna go then because i dont want to get mad at myself over the computer tata then
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| 10:35pm 10/12/2004 |
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my hands are so cold...anyways...so today i had a really bad day, which involced me getting thrown out of my math class, and then my religion teacher taking away my test before i was done...which means i prolly failed...erg...and stupid ppl arent talking to me on the internet...and people suck ass...and oh gosh i have a lot going on in my mind right now. so today and yesterday were cool only becuase during first we got to go and watch the hockey games cuz mr.turner is the coach, but what sucked arse is that some people that i would like to say im friends with, well one perosn in particular...is justbeing really weird...so now i donno what to do...oo eff...and today was just horrible becuz i almost started crying, and im getting sick (dam melissa lol) and arg... this is more of a venting sort of journal than anything else...my face is really soft today tho...and yesterday i got called pretty by like...many people...and today i got called pretty again..but i donno if these people are like..oh hey you are pretty, or oh hey you look so bad il tell you you look good becuz i dont want to be mean...thats what i do to one girl in my math class cuz shes a fugly person and she annoys me...so yeah gonna go right now and watch the tele becuz im in a freaking bad mood and dont feel like being sociable erg |
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| the jig is up |
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| 04:27pm 08/12/2004 |
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mood:  ecstatic
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ok so i haven't written in this thing for a gadzillion years, but anywho, you want to know whats new with me? well...today est mon birthday, woot...and then holy crap a lot has happened....anywho...so i got a lot of pressy's, sarah came home for the weekend...thats always thrilling lol...naw im kidding sarah ur my homie..and by homie i mean sister...anyways...so she came home for a suprise..then had family b-day partay, it was fun, then had suprise partay, it was fun too...then today got a bazillion pressy's and other stuff...n then so yeah...im too lazy to write out everything..plus i want chocolate so im gogint o go now...ta..oh yeah...melissa got me matchbook romance cd...FINALLY I HAVE THE CD! YESSSS! it is amazing...they are officially in my favourite band list...and i only have like 2 other favourite bands..well maybe like 5 but thats all good...so if you feel like listening to good music i say go for matchbook romance cause they are just danday...woot ta ta |
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| for those about to rock |
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| 01:34pm 27/11/2004 |
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aloha, how is everyone doing? good? yes i guess so. anyways...so last night was er...thrilling...i went to the markham festival of lights...woot!? anyways...saw many a people there and it was fun...the pizzapizza was good except that they burned my crust and i got mad...lol. and then me, cailey, barb, and alana went to look at the donkey, llama,camel, and sheep together...and the llama's almost killed us...and then we had to be quiet...and then me and alana went outside because we almost died...and by almost died i mean not evn close...lol...anyways...so yea i saw people it was funn somewhat...and then tonight alex has asked me to go to her house possibly...because she is having a get-together...but i may go i donno...maybe not...well see ya later! |
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| 08:04pm 22/11/2004 |
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JESU! i told him...unfortunatly lol...really what was i thinking? anywho...the whole time barbara told me everything to say cuz i was like...erm...do i have to? and then she made me! adn then after i told him she was like...god job, id never do that...grrrrr...thats me growling at barbara because she is so weird lol...goos hosw old chap you take after me...anywho...there was no answer and pretty much nothing has changed...except that now i will just be like...AHHH(butterstomy) and then run away...and to make matters worse...i have a 2 classes with him...and now im gonnabe like...*tear* because i have no clue what to do...seriously if barb had to guide me through telling him that i liked him...then what am i supposed to do when i see him in person? comon now...and plus...im starting to not like him that much...thats why i hate telling people that i like them..becuase then im like...well now there isnt any thrill...lol anywho...ill write laterz im just...oo-effing because im er...weird yupp |
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| 04:47pm 22/11/2004 |
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mood:  thirsty
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soo...guys suck ass...like this one person...who is super mean...and lets change the topic. Today was OK i guess...aha *do you want to OK me?* lol melissa...anywho...so i talked to le barb today and she otld me to tell this guy i like him...*shudder* so i think i might...in like...a gadzillion years...because im a dork...and dont like getting shut down..and yes i am a whale's penis melissa...lol (thats what dork is if ya didnt kno btw) ok so im gonna go because i have nothing else to say...except that guys are whores...well one guy is...and he sucks...lol toodles then
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| 03:26pm 18/11/2004 |
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it is official...i live in a bubble...of my own world...its quite fun...and oh yeah...laur...i hope you know im going to tell him...lol well this was pointless...and im really bored so im gonna go...byebyez then |
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| 06:55pm 17/11/2004 |
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mood:  bouncy...as in relly happy:D
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aha....i havent written in this for a gadzillion years...and by that i mean like a week...and its really hard to type right now becuase i just picked off all my wet nail-polish with my fingers...so now i have these clumps of nail polish on my fingers...(yay) anywhoz...its been ok so far...i guess...stupid stuupid stupid! people have just been recognized, and disqualified as my friend...and he is the biggets idiot...becuase he completly contradicted himself...plus he's just a big idiot...and well...just super super happy because well... just stuff happened today(yay) well sort of i guess...all that reall happened was i talked to someone i really really like...well...sort of lol its a long story...and by long i meean i dont want tow rite it, but would take like 3 seconds to explain...and er...yeah...oh today i actualy remembered out of nowhere when i ate the magnet and the rock...and started laughing...by myself...lol woot! ok well im gonna be going becasue my fingers are weird...by then!
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| 10:09pm 10/11/2004 |
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mood:  im bored..face is funny...
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ok sooo...well today was innnnteresting...er...sort of. talked to melissa quite a much...erm...found out that im like just barely passing bio and pretty much all my courses...in which i need to boost that up a bit...umm...just really tired and yawning, and listening to lovers and liars...matchbook romance..(woot). Annnnnywhore...im super bored and there was absolutly no point in writing this... i was ognna write sumthin important but if they read this i might be quite embarrased...plus not their friend anymore...or friends...so if oyu are desperate then just ask...becuase im to lazy to wirte bout it...and super hungry....gonna go now...sooooo pointless...toodles |
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| 05:48pm 09/11/2004 |
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mood: ecstatic
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it is official... me and nina are going on a euro trip lol...next summer (2006) nina and i are making plans and arranging where we are going...so far it is this:
- arrive in england
- after bout a week make our way to france
- through france to italy
- through italy to germany
- through germany to holland (amsterdam lol), netherlands?
- through the netherlands onto england again
- through england to scotland
- back to london, england, in which we catch out flight home
soooo... i have worked out almost all the money details...all i gotta do is find me a job...er...if anyone would like to join...theres pleanty of room...plus it would cost less than what i already have planned... :):):):):):):):):) aiaiai caramba...so excited...oh yeah..and if we dont go throughout europe to all those wonderful places, then we are just gonna stay in england and scotland fo about 2 months...sounds like huzzah! ok...well ive got to be going...i need a job, any ideas tell me! lol toodles
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| 05:17pm 08/11/2004 |
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mood: gloomy
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and if i dont make it, know that i've loved you all along, just like sunny days that we ignored becuase we're all dumb and jaded, and i hope to God i figure out whats wrong...i walk a lonely road, the only one that i have ever known, don't know where it goes, but it's only me and i walk alone...we're all to blame, we've gone to far, from pride to shame, we're trying so hard, dying in vain...the tears are filling up their glasses, no expression, no expression, hide my head i wanna drown my sorrow, no tomorow, no tomorow, i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had...something makes me carry on, its hard to understand...i dont wanna feel this small, you know i just cant handle this, handle this at all...made my mistakes, let you down, i cant, i cant pick up the peices...no one lives forever, in fact, we all die...without it all, im choking on nothing, its clear in my head, that im screaming for something...on my own...
random depressing lyrics...because i am in a very bad mood and i am very depressed right now...so lets share the pain...people suck ass...sometimes...
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